It's All In The Details

I'd not explain myself that night - Maybe it would change things, maybe it wouldn't, but that night is forever burned into my mind as an example of, "It's a lot easier to say things that haven't been said than to un-say things already said."
It was an informed decision, but not a well-thought-out one.  I knew the short-term outcome already, I just never considered what the long-term outcome would be.
Even though good things have happened because of it, I think that I would choose to go back to how it was, though don't ask me why.
It's funny, because I've always believed that you should never want to change the past, but live and love the present that you have, and the people in it.  And who knows, maybe in 5 years, it won't bother me anymore, maybe I'll be over it, but this stupid decision and the effects thereof, now, more than a year later, I would re-do given half the chance.  I would just shut up and keep up, and just deal with what I should never have said by myself.  I had been doing so well until then, too...

I 'borrowed' a meme from joisbishmyoga again...

After all, it's just another day, right?

I have RETURNED!

Firefox apparently decided that it forgave LJ over the past few days, so I'm back. ^^

It's so lovely being able to access my own flippin' journal again...

And yes, I am still making every effort with the stupid icons here. Why did no one tell me how much they sucked?!

Well, I have Photoshop working, so it might be fixed soon... >.<;; I hope.

Also, I feel I must promote the book Tithe by Holly Black, and the two that go with it(Valiant and Ironside), because they are absolutely fantastic. If you have a few hours to kill, go find them(in that order).   They are among the best things you can do with any of all of your extra time.

Son of a... !!!

I can post, I just can't log in... HOW does this work?  HOW?!?!?

Maybe...?  Can I post like this?  I hope I hope I hope...

Okay, just for the record folks? Tariru and I are NOT, I repeat, NOT dating. -.-;;

Oh, and if anyone wants to play DDR with me, let me know, yeah?

Just posting because I haven't in a while, and I wanna show off my icon. Devoted to someone who probably isn't even gonna see this, but hey.

The muse seems to have finally sobered up a little, so I may well write things finally... Though I make no promises as to WHAT.

Icons more likely to ensue though, and en masse.

I found the screen cap button, so I have material to icon with in COLOR. ^_^

Now if only I could save the darned things as something useable, we'd be in business...

Dear you,

I love you.

Love,
Me

So, what started off as a scratchy throat managed to mutate into a hellish throat, a headache like you would not believe, and a really fucking annoying case of dizziness.

Missed school, because I could just barely walk, couldn't talk, and the thought of people made my stomach wish to join in the fun. -.-;;

So, upon waking up from the coma, I went back and re-read my posts here, and have broken my own sense of time...

Now that everything has settled on a dull throb, I'm posting and being generally depressed...

I'm most definitely sick, but I don't know what it is, so I can't touch anyone for fear of passing it along. I also have to work out how to get a doctor's note for missed classes when the only car in the household won't be back until after the doctor would leave for the night.

Also, I think whatever this is is obscenely contagious, because my dad has the same exact thing, and showed it at the same exact time...

I wonder if I can have more pain killers yet...?

So, tonight, I have had a First.

First time I saw a real person have guns drawn against them.

My father and I were coming back from an errand, and at an intersection, these police cars pulled over a van, and like, 3-4 people were out their doors and aiming at the van before the driver could even get out.

This was disturbing, as we were IN that intersection, waiting for the light to change so that we could un-ass the area, post haste...

Also, Pomegranite-Blueberry juice is yummy.

Finally, I am making icons. I am considering making a second account to post them, as they are all roughly the same theme groups that I probably won't post about much...

Stupid me for asking, but come on guys, input?

Nail + Toe = OW

So, sleepover was great fun. However, I stand by my previous statement; "Withdrawal sucks." After very little affection on a daily basis, and then having permission to do a very nice shawl impression, my body has decided that it prefers the latter, and it prefers it Now, thank-you-very-much.

I am so not made for this whole lack-of-people thing...

...

I think I'm gonna go break out the sparkling grape juice and wine glasses... Maybe see about some ice cream, and a nice movie...

*feels rather like she imagines Kaoru would when left alone*

... maybe I'll dye my hair again...

Color votes?

So, just swiped a cute little meme from Joisbishmyoga's page, and if I remembered how to link, I would. However, go click her name in my friends list, and we're good, I think...

Anyhow!

1. Put this in your journal. <*font color="yourusername"> <*b>yourusername<*/b> <*/font>
2. Remove the asterisks.
3. Replace yourusername with your user name.
4. See what color you are.

thorned_ivy

Yay PS2!!

Boo shitty tv!!

Okay, so I got a used PS2 yesterday. It is my baby. But when I tried to plug it in to the tv up here, I realised the flaw in my plan. The tv is almost 10. It barely worked when we had satelite, and when we switched, it got left out. So it now gets NOTHING.

Also, the remotes are quite dead. All they are good for is lighting up when you push any button. They don't do anything in regards to the television. So, with my banishment less than 24 hours away, no directions to the house I'm SUPPOSED to stay at, and no television, I'm not gonna get to play Dark Cloud for weeks...

In other news, the one I'm staying with NEEDS TO GIVE ME THE DIRECTIONS TO HER FRIKKEN UNPLOTTABLE HOUSE!!!

Moving on. Muses have all taken a sabatical in regards to fanfic. They are vaguely entertaining an original piece, but it's not really going anywhere, and I'm thinking that for entertainment, I'll just go shave my legs or something... just about out of things to read that are plain text, and my brain is too tired to wade through scanlated manga.

.. Oh yeah.. I need new icons, too... Must work on that.. eventually...

*beats head upon desk* My muses hate me. They listened to my music last night and gave me like 4 more fics they want written. Spanning all manner of fandoms. I'm doomed.

Also, I'm being banished for 4 days in a couple weeks, so expect many lonely updates the 10th through the 13th of August.

Finally, I feel like a whore. I've taken to wearing shorts and skirts since it's hot out. Walking out of my room today, I had one of my big t-shirts on, and no one could have guessed that I had pants on at all. X.X

Oh, and also. The muses are being weird, so if you have a particular pairing/idea that you think rules, and needs to be expaned upon, let me know! Because frankly, I can't go off of most of the stuff they're giving me.

So, I finished watching Fullmetal Alchemist subbed, and it has hijacked all the muses. The entire lot of them decided that, since there is a noticeable LACK thereof, I need to write a crossover between that and Harry Potter.

Easier said than done. No one wants to travel, and frankly, the two universes DO NOT MESH. X.X

I'm also lacking ideas for new icons, so those would be appreciated.

Finally, Memo does wish to be continued, but is being slower than I thought possible. I'm resigned to hopefully posting the next piece around my birthday. Maybe the falling leaves will inspire me...

.. And the song that just came on the radio, Someday, just sent the muses into another flurry of need for FMA fic. X.x There may well be more fic from me in the coming days...

Wow, I haven't updated in ages...

Well, I have a reason or two.

1. The muse was a total jerk and wrote the entire second chapter of Memo while I was finally falling asleep and forgot it by the next morning. Something about trees I think...

2. The internet banning and subsequent 'bedtime' severely cramped the writing time since I usualy write late at night.

In other news, I found the cable for my MP3 player finally. The stupid thing was at the bottom of my clothes basket with a bottle of nail polish and an extra set of headphones...

Frikken leprechauns...

So, after the incident with the chapter of Memo, the only thing I've written was an original fic that the muse forced me to write. It refuses to write fanfic now for an undetermined period of time.

Finally, I now have Photoshop 7 and am in the process of teaching myself to make moving icons.

You have been warned.

I spent most of yesterday evening writing, and I stil haven't finished either fic I'm working on. -.-;;

Any preferances between Chrono Crusade and Kyou Kara Maou fluff?

Also, insane amounts of energy today, and I've run out of dance music. Suggestions?

Finally, challenges for fic are completely welcome. The stranger, the more likely they'll be what you want...

So, I tried to post last night, but my internet was being a right and true bastard. In between then and now, I found this article here, and felt it ought to be read by the general populace.

http://www.therevealer.org/archives/main_story_002500.php

Now, back to what I was going to post...

I'm on book 8 of Chrono Crusade, page 65 of Howl's Moving Castle, and quite in love. ^^

Now if only a certain subbing group would put up the next episode of Kyou Kara Maou...

~ about 5 hours later ~

So, on the train back from downtown, there was this kid across the aisle, and he had this voice that made me want to RIP MY HAIR OUT. Or better yet, HIS. And as soon as the train started moving for the 2 hour trip home, he asked, "Are we there yet?"

Also, volume 8 of Chrono Crusade is a total bitch to find.

And the rest of the series has my muses in an uproar over which to do; write KKM fic, or CC fic. *headdesk*

My cousin and I have come up with the pairing Chrono x Ed, from Chrono Crusade and Fullmetal Alchemist respectively. I kinda wanna try writing that...

Finally, my choice in music. It's a christian song that's almost not christian and makes the muses Think. I quite like it. ^^

So, life has kinda sucked here for the past few days.

Saturday night, I spent an hour doing a full-system cleanse, and freaking the living hell outta my mom. Apparently having your daughter almost completely incapacitated on the bathroom floor for an hour is not amusing.

Well, after the hour of extreme discomfort, I was, like last time, Just Fine.

Mom was like, "O.o Weren't you just, like, deathly ill?"

So, the next morning, I'm not Just Fine. I'm achy, and mildly dizzy. I also have to take pictures at mom's graduation. -.-

So, I do, and that goes down without major incident, and then we have to go to a party afterwards. I spent the majority of it alseep on the couch dreaming of trying to catch piglets at night in a yard full of boxes, a couple fluffy things, and a character that was scarily similar to Howl from where I left off in the book. -.-;;

The rest of the day and a half is spent in and out of near-catatonia. Monday, I think I got a total of 1/2 ounce of water down. Today, I had more water, some Capri Sun, one small cookie and some fruit.

I've also finished what I have downloaded of KKM, and am near tears waiting for the next episodes...

And now, I have class tomorrow, and what do I do? I agree to go to my friend's house before-hand. -.-;; So, I have to shower, which is more dangerous than you might realise when you're dizzy as all fuck, and then I have to DRIVE. If the dizzy doesn't go away, I'm in deep dirt like WHOA.

Wish me luck, hmm?

I may be testing layout designs coutesy of my beloved Tariru, so beware the ever-changing-ness.

Also, the ficcy? Yeah, I'll continue it...

...

Eventually...

The muse went and drank itself stupid.

Muse auditions now open. -.-;;